finally i gave in … no more coloring my hair , i would just let nature take its course and let it grow ….. silver .
It took a lot of convincing … but the catalyst was that my hair was falling off , plus it was damaged beyond repair . Trust me i tried everything … castor oil ( so thick and yuck) , all types of treatments , expensive hair extensions …
i guess i can’t pretend to be youthful , and embrace being a ‘silver vixen’ as i try to convince myself … it ain’t that bad being half a century old …. just means we have more experience , seen a lot …
I have this phobia … of my own age . I can’t make myself say my age out loud . when i go to the doctor , and they ask my age … i just coyly say , “look at my chart”. or if any friends , acquaintances asks me and i really do have to tell them … i just say my birth year … you do the math .
Friends tell me , Rika you have to be proud , looking like this at your age … be proud , own it . I’m like yeah Beeeyatch , you own up to your wrinkles … I’m not ready to own up to my age …
But now … slowly , I’m actually trying to grow up gracefully . my hair is all silver , gloriously silver … at least it’s healthy , short , grey . Thank God it’s still sort of thick-ish , albeit frizzy .
Its a major overhaul . i have to rethink the way i dress … can’t buy clothes for young adults anymore , it looks garish and vulgar on me now , like i said … group up gracefully .
own it …
therefore instead of writing about how to try to be young … I’m going to try to navigate ‘silver vixen’ with class . finding our way thru this nightmare of hormonal imbalance , estrogen failures , roller coasters of emotions .
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sweetestrika 